tied up with my feelings...

I never had a serious crush before, at least, before i met him. I wasn't the least bit interested in him in the beginning actually. i thought he was just a goodie-two-shoes kinda guy who's in NA, but now i know that he's a really nice guy, even though he seems to be annoying to other people. Okay, so i hid my feeling for a few days. hey don't giv me that look, i only started to really like him a few days ago. i told MaNdY about this and i don't know if she'll tell other people. i mean, i know i trust her, but even then it's not much. i really want to confess to him, but what if he rejects me? or says that he's not ready for a stead or relationship yet? i know i'm not ready, but i know i want to confess. i always wave at him and smile at him when i go past his class, and at first it was he who started the greetings but later, it was me who started it, and i dont want him to think of me as despo. i mean, by the way i always wave at him, i won't be surprised if he thinks i like him already.anyways, back to the dellima of having a stead, i too am not ready for a stead or relationship, i want to concentrate on my studies but my stupid mind won't let me focus. when i have the chance i would think of how good we would look together, a figment of my overraging imagination. my inner sel always argues and says that 'if it's never gonna happen, you may as well think it would' but that would only get my hopes up so i try to fill my mind with other things. ugh, this is getting me nowhere, i'm gonna enter an entry another time when i'm in the mood. cya blog.